Something interesting happened. Once I stopped the struggle and became still, a message revealed itself.
I wonder about the finish. The End. I process and filter information all the time to try to find the clues on how the final sequence plays out. And then, in a reverse domino effect, I work my way back to Now and set my expectations. The process creates predictability, reduces anxiety, and eliminates time wasted exploring outcomes that will never be realized.
This works well when death is the only outcome that matters. But Death is not the point, Life is. And more specifically, Happiness.
Lucky for me, someone has already put this thought cloud to words:
not a destination.
For a long time it seemed to me
that life was about to begin—real life.
But there was always
some obstacle in the way,
something to be gotten through first,
some unfinished business,
time still to be served,
a debt to be paid.
At last it dawned on me that
these obstacles were my life.
This perspective has helped me to
see there is no way to happiness.
Happiness is the way.
So treasure every moment
you have and remember that
time waits for no one.
Alfred D. Souza